i havent been posting much lately
as i'm still unpacking/moving- still fighting a losing battle with the bank and foreclosure, so sick of them I found a place and moved, I can't waste anymore negative energy on them, been fighting since breast cancer diagnosis in november 2008 and I REFUSE to waste anymore of my life on a losing battle. Its only a house, sticks and stone, wherever i am with my family is my home, and if they want it so bad, they can have it. Should have everything moved out in the next 2 weeks
I also just had all my teeth removed friday (look like someone beat me black n blue), have osteo brought on by chemo and the fosmax and boniva arent helping, and so oncologist wants me on reclast infusions once a year. my teeth were so week they had started breaking off so she suggested having them all removed since a possible side effect of reclast is onj (osteonecrosis of the jaw) and since side effects usually get me coming and a going, i opted to do it. hate it, cant be fitted for dentures until february so i sound just like daffy duck.
i've also gained alot of weight, around 40 pounds. seems to be concentrated on my middle my rear and my thighs. very nice lol
also my youngest has surgery to get her tonsils out on tuesday- poor kid, its her thanksgiving break so she doesnt get to miss school and she doesnt get to eat a good meal, and her birthday is a week later. the preop nurse said she would be in pain for at least a week, apparently older kids have a hard time healing mostly because they dont listen to post op instructions. (we are postponing thanksgiving meal until 2 weeks later) which is fine with me since I am on soft foods for another 2 weeks myself lol. She tried out for the basketball team again this year and didn't make it so she's a bit down (most due to a girl who made the team who kept telling her she wasn't good enough) I don't understand why someone would do this. I told her to keep trying, that you don't give up because of one person, if you want something go for it and to heck with what others think. I told her I am proud that she has the courage to at least try. Many people go through life and don't even try anything. Life is way too short to just sit back and watch it go by. So I bought her a basketball. And I am looking on craigslist for free standing sandbags at the bottom hoop for outside. She posted on facebook that she is going to keep practicing and be better for next year when she tries out.
my grandbaby is beautiful, we are enjoying every second with her. I swear I tear up each time I look or even think about her. She is such a wonderful gift.
i may not post alot, but am usually reading the boards at least a few times a week, praying for those who ask and for those who don't for for better days. sometimes life really sucks, sometimes you just want to give up, but you have to try and get past it, talk with family or friends or church or even post online, and it may take some time but everything will eventually work itself out and be okay (a new kind of okay but okay). life is precious
i thank God everyday for today. No matter how rough life gets I am forever grateful for each day.
To better days ahead for all my fellows traders and friends on RS.
1|1|God bless you and I pray He comforts you|cinda68|lacinda68@gmail.com|10:33:48|11/17/2011|
I'm sorry to hear that things are so difficult lately. You are right that God does care for us and no matter how hard it gets, we need to be thankful. One verse that has helped me so much through the years and I hope it helps you too:
Psalm 119:71
It is good for me that I have been afflicted; that I might learn thy statutes.
I never understood why bad things happened and sometimes felt abandoned by God but this verse helps me realize that these things are meant for my good. Most people look at me like I have 3 heads when I tell them I am grateful for all the hard times because I learned so much about God. It took a long time for me to get here, to being truly thankful for difficulties. It is very comforting to know that God is doing all for my good, its all about the end of things.
Hang in there and I pray God gives you the strength you need to endure and also for His comfort and peace.