Work was actually fine today. I have gotten more work done in the last few days than I have gotten in weeks! Home is a whole other story! My house is torn apart because I'm trying to get things ready for a garage sale on the weekend and I can't seem to get the hubby to help with any of it. For some reason, my stuff and all the kids stuff is my stuff! You'd think he'd help with it, but no! All weekend... no help. Granted it was Father's day... but it wasn't Father's weekend!
Then I pick up the kids and of course it's raining, but at least I didn't have to water my plants... which by the way... are doing pretty awesome. I have found several more tomatoes that have started
This is where my day goes right down hill.... Jeff is out of town until tonight working... so I have the monsters (I mean kids... by myself). I pick them up food because if I don't they just go nuts! They are starved by 5:30 after summer camp. They run them around like mad and really don't give them enough time for snacks all day. One is just not enough between lunch and dinner if they are running and playing all day. Emily has grown 2 inches in the last 3 weeks! That takes some major food and sleep! LOL. So dinner was $23 out the door for food when I have tons of food at home! UGH... then they knew I had to go to the grocery store. They asked for donut when we got there. I told them no, not until the end of the grocery shopping trip (I'm learning in my old age!)... and only if they've been good. So then they proceed to drive me nuts throughout the store. Running around, being fresh, hitting each other, yanking on the basket, etc. My daughter even climbed up on a water display and was sitting on it! She NEVER does stuff like this!
So we go to check out and they remind me about the donuts! Of course I told them no donuts because they weren't good. So my son loses it in line while I'm checking out and has one of his meltdowns... the kind where he hits me and hits me and I'm telling you, he's only 8, but he could take a small adult! He's a big kid and really really strong! He surprises people all the time with his strength! So I finally got him calmed down by holding his arms, but I must look like the worst parent in the world that can't control her kids. He has medical issues, so people don't understand because they can't tell he has them. After he calms down, he literally can't see well and wants to go to sleep, he exerts all his energy. I hear these kind of melt downs are common in Autistic Children. My son is not diagnosed Autistic, but one therapist thought he might be Aspergers. His Aspergers friend has these melt downs often too, his mother has seen one of Steven's and said they are just like her son's... just her son is not as big or strong. I just scheduled a doctors appointment for him with my doctor, because I don't like his pediatrician. I think my doctor will do more for him. I'm going to have them do his bloodwork to make sure he doesn't have Diabetes or something that makes him suddenly exhausted. His behavior therapist even thought it was a good idea with a history of diabetes in the family. This is of course in addition to Behavior Therapy and the Pyschiatrist.
Oh yeah.. for hitting me, Steven either loses his DSI until next Tuesday OR his room has to be totally clean by bedtime. I heard stuff being moved around in his room... but the whole cleaning thing has only worked once! So we'll see!
So now I hurt a bit because he punched me right where I was having muscle pain and I have blood pressure issues, so you know my blood pressure is going crazy... which just affects my kidneys... which could only kill me one day!
And now I'm sitting in the living room in the middle of a garage sale mess that I have to clean!
So I realize things could be much worse, but I'm just having a boo hoo me moment and I really just need a shoulder to cry on.... and I don't have one anymore.
1|1|Laurie, I'm so sorry you're having such a blah day....|RebekkaVA|queen_vulture@msn.com|20:09:06|06/21/2011|
I've been having a few of them myself :( I wish I lived closer, I'd give you a big hug. Hugs, Rebekka
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2|1|Laurie, I am sorry to hear all this.. but...|melpaul|Melpaul199@aol.com|20:24:47|06/21/2011|
I think your doing the right thing about getting his blood work done and good to a good dr
Your on the right track So sorry it's alot on you but hang in there and all will go ok in the long run
Do deep breathing I am a firm believer in that 3|1|Laurie, let it out, girl......oh, and you dont have just one shoulder to cry on....you have dozens! :)|saint6811|waylan@comcast.net|21:09:54|06/21/2011|
" You'll get what's coming to you ... Unless it was mailed."
4|1|Thanks so much... I don't know what I would do without|jdlaurie|savethosepennies@aol.com|18:23:40|06/22/2011|
Posted on Jun-22-11 at 06:23 PM (Eastern) by 76.101.225.143
you guys....
Feeling like I need a hug again today.... told hubby I needed one as soon as he gets home. I think it's because I realized that I did alot of hugging my Mom before she died, but by the time I got her to the doctor she just never hugged me back... her mind was already so far gone. You know, not the kind of hug where you wrap your arms around your kid to comfort them or to be comforted. She did lean up against me and put her head against my chest and when I would move she'd come back to the same place once in the hospital. I guess that was her way of hugging me or telling me she was scared, she didn't show emotion at this point, but maybe she was feeling something. I just told her I would be there for her and I loved her. Guess I'm really missing her these days. Especially when things get rough with Steven like they have been.
I also spoke with my mothers fiance today. He called a few days ago and I just couldn't call him. I finally did it today... didn't help much... just made me feel horrible again.
I also haven't been able to speak to my in-laws much. They keep calling to check on my, but I'm having a hard time talking to them right now. Maybe it's because I always thought they would go first since they are so much older than Mom was, so when I see them it reminds me about Mom.... everything reminds me about mom!
Even my cell phone... people wonder why I don't answer it anymore... I now realize the main reason I had that phone was in case Mom needed me or I needed to call her! I barely keep it charged anymore. I suppose I need it for my hubby and the kids.... but Mom would always call every phone she could call until she finally found me... usually on the cell!
And then there's the bad dreams! UGH....
I'm going to try and make a good dinner tonight, get some stuff ready for the garage sale this weekend and get to bed semi-early. I know it's normal to have all these emotions coming up suddenly for a while. My sweet little 7 year old just came up to me and asked if I was ok and I told her I was missing my Mom, so she gave me the biggest hug.... funny my 7 year old always knows just the right thing to do!
Now I just want to sit down and have lots of comfort food! BUT I CAN'T! Have to lose a bunch of weight because of all the health problems I'm having. Maybe that's why I'm crying so much! Everything I eat is so full of water! Water, Vegetables, Fruits, etc... LOL
Laurie