im soooooo freaking lonely and depressed:)))))))
quick short story been widowed 9 years tired of not having my life mean any thing without someone to love and love me not just emotonally but physically
i opened my heart and soul to 2 women over the past 2 months, both seemed interested in me but they both chnged their minds, ges imtoo friggn fat,old and hideously ugly for anyone to get too close to0, nobody cn see the me on the inside, how have a good heart etc an do anyting to make a woman happy if olythey would eable to get to know me an love me for me
gota pint of cabo-wab,sme vicadanad some sleeing pills maybe in the next life someone would love me
1|1|Please|zombietoo|littlejadensmom@juno.com|20:29:17|12/16/2010|
talk to someone asap. Is there a local crisis number you can call? You haven't met the right person yet. Please don't get discouraged. Do you go to church? Your community may have singles activities. Who knows you may meet someone in the grocery store. You have to love yourself before someone else is able to love you. 6|2|Clay write back to us so we know your ok now!!|melpaul|Melpaul199@aol.com|20:52:25|12/16/2010|
We are your friends talk to us Please call that number and just talk!!!! 38|2|scary just read all this glad to hear Clay is OK but plz get some help !!!!|lydzkydz|wyldkydz@embarqmail.com|22:08:54|12/16/2010|
(((HUGSSS))))
please include your user name on refundsweepers.
i appreciate all the trades made in the past.
THANKS!! 2|1|Clay, I urge you, actually I am praying for you to call 1-800-SUICIDE 1-800-784-2433. Your life is worth more than what two ladies who didn't like you think. Please call someone. |Ranalt|ainebailey@gmail.com|20:35:42|12/16/2010|
Life is like a cup of tea,
It's all in how you make it.
Lisa
3|2|Yes, pls, Clay.....we hear you, we acknowledge you reaching out to us....please, call that number....You are worth so much more than what two people think of you! |saint6811|waylan@comcast.net|20:42:42|12/16/2010|
" You'll get what's coming to you ... Unless it was mailed."
4|1|:-( Hang in there|sdoty|sdoty17@hotmail.com|20:45:49|12/16/2010|
I'm sorry you're feeling so down. It's a shame those two women let you down but there are people who will appreciate you and love you for the wonderful person that you are. You're worth loving, and you'll find the right one. And in the meantime, please do talk to someone. We all have low moments and you don't have to face it on your own.
Susan
5|1|Hang in there better days are ahead.....|summersand53|summersand53@yahoo.com|20:49:34|12/16/2010|
Oh I know exactly what you mean. I gave up dating 2 yrs ago for the same reason. Email me I will talk to you 7|1|Need you to respond back to this|flyvanguard|flyvanguard@yahoo.com|20:57:43|12/16/2010|
hi clay, my name is sandy and i really need you to respond back to this message. i read the last line of your message and am taking that as a serious suicide threat. please respond back on here and let us know that you are okay. i hope you can feel from the responses to your message that you are truly cared for on this site - there are lots of people out here worried about you. this is a hard time of year and please remember that your life does have value ... to more people than you realize. jot us a note back on here and let us know, tonight, what's going on with you. 8|1|Clay: PLEASE listen to the others! We are all here for you!|littlewolf|CCsuterlab@aol.com|20:58:57|12/16/2010|
BIG HUGS!!
9|1|CLAY - Please Talk To Me - Send Me An Email|Newman|BenjiBubbles@gmail.com|21:01:10|12/16/2010|
Please DO NOT do anything to yourself. I know how you feel, as I have Major Medical issues that destroyed my life now for 10 years. To make a long story short. I was a very successful Retail Store Manager, took an early retirement to enjoy life and travel. One year later after retirement, beginning to have Major Issues with my Back/Neck/Legs, etc. After several visits with different Doctors, they found out I have a Spinal Cord Injury, as one of the back disc's is pinching my Spinal Cord. Can not operate, too risky. I live in 24/7 Pain, I have NO LIFE NOW. All I have left is this computer. YES, I have Major Narcotic Pain Killers and YES, Many times I feel like taking all of them and wash them down with some booze. But, I have accepted the fact, that I have this computer and I will help people either with their computer issues or find new friends on the web, who have the same issues like myself. CLAY, you are not even close to my issues and I am Pleading with YOU, PLEASE DO NOT HARM YOURSELF. Send me an email and we can talk some more. 10|2|Someone should report this to the authorities in Clay's area. If you have his information. |Kristy|mi3zons1@yahoo.com|21:02:28|12/16/2010|
"Women should not have children after 35. Thirty-five children are enough." - anonymous (Only 28 to GO!) 11|3|Kristy, working on this, anyone have his info??|Ranalt|ainebailey@gmail.com|21:05:19|12/16/2010|
Life is like a cup of tea,
It's all in how you make it.
Lisa
12|3|i sent out an email for his addy...I was going to call for a welfare check on him....please Clay, post so we know you are ok.|saint6811|waylan@comcast.net|21:06:00|12/16/2010|
" You'll get what's coming to you ... Unless it was mailed."
13|1|Age|flyvanguard|flyvanguard@yahoo.com|21:10:15|12/16/2010|
anyone have an idea of clay's age ...
clay, help us out here buddy. we need to hear from you. give someone a call or jot a note on here ... 14|2|I think Clay had posted something on his last bday about being in his forties, but I am not positive....Clay, please post to us!|saint6811|waylan@comcast.net|21:11:12|12/16/2010|
" You'll get what's coming to you ... Unless it was mailed."
25|3|I've been trying to get into my old emails to see if we ever traded because I know he's been on RS for many years...|sunriver|sunriver@gmail.com|21:17:37|12/16/2010|
I can't remember where he lives. Terribly worried about him too!
Clay, if you read this, please know that many of us do really care! Rejection hurts and the holidays can be an awful time when you are already grieving over someone you've lost. I know it might not seem like it today, but things will get better! I promise you they will!
Please, please post here or email any of us and let someone know you are ok. Or email someone and ask for help. We've all got your back or we want to anyway! Vanessa
sunriver @ gmail.com
15|1|garland, tx - mesquite, tx|flyvanguard|flyvanguard@yahoo.com|21:12:28|12/16/2010|
does anyone know if this could be him in this area? 16|2|I keep thinking he lives in NY state.....|saint6811|waylan@comcast.net|21:13:03|12/16/2010|
" You'll get what's coming to you ... Unless it was mailed."
17|3|Yes, NY..... cye's!|maraj|maraj64@hotmail.com|21:13:55|12/16/2010|
Fact of life: After Monday and Tuesday..even the CALENDAR says...
W..T..F..
Please identify yourself in 1st email w/name/username. Due to recent problem trades, if I haven't traded w/you before, I will probably require you send your end 1st or I'll need LEGIT trade references/feedback. I will be happy to provide the same. IF you plan to hold your end til you've received mine, I will need to know that IMMEDIATELY, BEFORE trade is finalized.
18|1|Got his addy, thank you, maraj!! He is in Norwich, NY.....|saint6811|waylan@comcast.net|21:14:05|12/16/2010|
" You'll get what's coming to you ... Unless it was mailed."
19|1|norwich sound right - wife yvette?|flyvanguard|flyvanguard@yahoo.com|21:14:15|12/16/2010|
??? 20|1|flyvanguard cye. I think I found him. I traced his isp and then found him. He is in New York.|Ranalt|ainebailey@gmail.com|21:14:18|12/16/2010|
Life is like a cup of tea,
It's all in how you make it.
Lisa
21|1|got him on the phone|flyvanguard|flyvanguard@yahoo.com|21:15:54|12/16/2010|
. 22|2|Thank Goodness.|Ranalt|ainebailey@gmail.com|21:16:47|12/16/2010|
Life is like a cup of tea,
It's all in how you make it.
Lisa
23|2|:-)|zombietoo|littlejadensmom@juno.com|21:17:03|12/16/2010|
>Posted on Dec-16-10 at 09:15 PM (Eastern)
>by 209.105.151.162.
26|3|Way to go!!! Great work ladies|Kristy|mi3zons1@yahoo.com|21:17:55|12/16/2010|
"Women should not have children after 35. Thirty-five children are enough." - anonymous (Only 28 to GO!) 24|2|Thank God! I was just going to call him, found his phone number online!|saint6811|waylan@comcast.net|21:17:29|12/16/2010|
" You'll get what's coming to you ... Unless it was mailed."
27|2|Thank goodness!|sunriver|sunriver@gmail.com|21:18:41|12/16/2010|
Hope he is okay! Please hear that people care about you Clay! We really do! 28|2|Thank goodness, Sandy|littlewolf|CCsuterlab@aol.com|21:22:33|12/16/2010|
BIG HUGS to everyone!! 29|1|nothin going to happn tonight|cdoane|cdoane@mail.com|21:22:50|12/16/2010|
just needed some sympathy i guess ?i need to talk to her tomorrow at work
just bothers me that it always seems to happen to me everytime i take someone to heart
no worries for now willpost trading this weekend (tomorrow night) 30|2|Hang in there Clay! |sunriver|sunriver@gmail.com|21:28:09|12/16/2010|
It's hard to be alone around this time of the year. 31|2|Happy |zombietoo|littlejadensmom@juno.com|21:28:44|12/16/2010|
to hear you're o.k. Every life is valuable, everybody is beautiful, everyone is important...!!!
32|2|We're always here if you need to talk, Clay...please know you are not alone...thank you for posting so we know you are ok......|saint6811|waylan@comcast.net|21:29:38|12/16/2010|
" You'll get what's coming to you ... Unless it was mailed."
34|2|Oh, Thank God!!! One day at a time Clay. :)|maraj|maraj64@hotmail.com|21:32:03|12/16/2010|
Fact of life: After Monday and Tuesday..even the CALENDAR says...
W..T..F..
Please identify yourself in 1st email w/name/username. Due to recent problem trades, if I haven't traded w/you before, I will probably require you send your end 1st or I'll need LEGIT trade references/feedback. I will be happy to provide the same. IF you plan to hold your end til you've received mine, I will need to know that IMMEDIATELY, BEFORE trade is finalized.
33|1|Clay... PLEASE don't do anything to harm yourself. PLEASE!!!|maraj|maraj64@hotmail.com|21:29:49|12/16/2010|
PLEASE call the number Ranalt posted. Vent or cry, but you need to get your sorrow & frustration out, get it off your chest. Then, you need to get yourself to a good therapist who can help you build yourself back up so you can find peace & contentment in your own skin. You can do it Clay!
I understand what you're feeling right now cuz I've been there, a couple different times. It's scary but it's a very dark place you don't want to be.
You've got to understand that things WILL get better, but you need to take 1 day at a time.
There's someone/something out there for you but you'll never know what it is if you harm yourself.
You DO have a purpose in life even if you can't see it or don't know what it is. It IS out there just waiting for the right time, the right person. YOU will be the right person for that special someone/something, but only when it's the right time.
It's hard, I know, & yes, sometimes you feel like life royally sucks. And you're right as sometimes it does. But you need to take it 1 day at a time & try to find something, anything, that's good & wonderful in every day. Get out of the house & socialize. Make it a point to meet & strike up a conversation w/1 new person every day, face to face.
To hell w/those 2 women. It's their loss & they're certainly not worth destroying your own life over. NOBODY you've known for only 2 months is worth that!
PLEASE Clay!! Contact someone so we know you're ok!!!
Fact of life: After Monday and Tuesday..even the CALENDAR says...
W..T..F..
Please identify yourself in 1st email w/name/username. Due to recent problem trades, if I haven't traded w/you before, I will probably require you send your end 1st or I'll need LEGIT trade references/feedback. I will be happy to provide the same. IF you plan to hold your end til you've received mine, I will need to know that IMMEDIATELY, BEFORE trade is finalized.
35|1|Clay, great to see you posting. Take care of yourself and remember that we all care about you.|Ranalt|ainebailey@gmail.com|21:37:44|12/16/2010|
Life is like a cup of tea,
It's all in how you make it.
Lisa
36|1|always remember that you have|randij|randirn@gmail.com|21:46:55|12/16/2010|
alot of friends here who care about you 37|1|SO happy to hear you are OK Clay!! I am ....|Skaytes|skaytez@gmail.com|22:01:34|12/16/2010|
praying for you Clay that God will help you get thru this. It's very rough I know. You may not know but my husband walked out on last fall after many years together..just out of the blue..no warning. These things happen ..don't know why..but there is a reason. I am guessing God has a plan for someone for you that is MUCH better than those 2 gals were!! When time is right the right person will come along in your life. Sometimes we are just impatient..know I am...but it's all in God's time..not ours. PLEASE hang in there. It WILL get better. You have many friends here as everyone has said and we care! ((HUGS))to you..you need some of those am sure my friend :) 39|1|i'm glad you came on here|joseph|parkerjoe3@yahoo.com|01:01:11|12/17/2010|
to talk do you have kids or friends or anyone to talk to you haver us here hope you read all these my sign in name is joseph but i'm actually rose so a lady talking when i was new to rs and they asked for a name i put my husbands cause i didn't understand the net yet oh brother so i didn't want to put my name anyway when its really bad you just have to wait i know my mother was a widow for 30 or more years she never dated anyone after my dad died never seemed to want to well hope you feel bertter soon talk to us tomorrow 40|1|(((CLAY)))) I am happy to hear that you are okay, please if you ever feel the need to harm yourself, call someone and talk to them, do you take meds for depression? If you ever need a shoulder or anything I'm an email away, you're a wonderful person and I know sometimes life is hard esp. with relationships but you can't give up sweetie, no one is worth taking your life over, you have so much to give (((HUGS)))~*~|RebekkaVA|queen_vulture@msn.com|01:11:07|12/17/2010|
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41|1|You were too good for those 2. They weren't worthy of a good guy but somewhere down the road when you and the right person aren't looking to find each other it will happen and you'll get a feeling like that will make those women seem like a joke. When one or two doors close another opens. Everything happens for a reason and God wouldn't give you what he didn't thinnk you could handle. Please don't harm yourself. If you do you won't go to heaven to be with your wife and we all want to see the love ones we have lost someday. Some inspriration to you may be the guy who lost his whole family and home to a home invasion. I think his name was Dr Petit(?) Look him up and let his strength inspire you to come through this because it can always be worse off somewhere else. And it will get better. I promise you. I have been there and it truly does. Take it an hour at a time if you have to! Don't give up on your chace to live. There are many who are terminal who would love to have the chane to live. Live for all those who can't!|wegogo|mike15461@gmail.com|01:41:53|12/17/2010|
Please! 42|2|Hang in there Clay, those 2 women are the ones that lost out--not you! God has someone special for you but you just have to be patient! HUGS! Teresa|cashcoll|cashcoll@yahoo.com|03:58:33|12/17/2010|
Have a Great Day!
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GO HOGS GO!!
Woooooooooo, Pig! Sooiee!
43|1|sorry for the scare an also for the support|cdoane|cdoane@mail.com|09:56:30|12/17/2010|
i was OFF my meds(anti-depresents/blood preasuure) and the whole world just seemed to close in on me,those 2 womn didnt help matters much,i always feel unapreciated ,unwanted and unloved but usually i can deal with it by putting my mind on chores/work,talking about my problems usually just makes things worse fo me emotionally,but someting insde me just snapped last night, but snapped back in place this morning:)) 44|2|Clay I am sorry that it has been rough it can be especialy hard during the winter months Have you thought about giveing some of your|teener|teenerzacsneenee@yahoo.com|10:31:05|12/17/2010|
time to a childrens home or a nursing home? Also tho they don't take the place of a human have you thought about getting a pet? They are always there with their love and friendship 24/7 45|2|CYE|ppe1952|MATWELL3@ROCHESTER.RR.COM|10:35:37|12/17/2010|
we don't tell any one i can be nice-- ruins the image. 46|2|Glad things are better by the light of day.....hang in there, Clay....we're here to listen and give some moral support....but please consider seeing someone for some counselling, they are best trained to help you! :)|saint6811|waylan@comcast.net|10:50:23|12/17/2010|
" You'll get what's coming to you ... Unless it was mailed."
47|2|So glad to see you posting today Clay...|sunriver|sunriver@gmail.com|11:08:40|12/17/2010|
Logged on to see how you were doing. Now let me throw my mother hen hat on too and echo Joy's words (and a couple other folks too) and urge you to call your local health dept and ask for counseling/support for grief. There is probably a non-profit around you who provides that for free. I'd urge you to go to a group because being around other people who have gone through what you have when you lost your wife will be something that you can't get here on RS and although making that call is scary it can be a relief too.
A lot of times people who have lost someone close struggle with forgiveness and maybe I am reading a little into your posts but I suspect that maybe you are carrying around some guilt? Hard thing to work through, but if you are I want you to know that it takes real strength to face it and work through it. It also takes a lot of talking about what happened, so it worries me that you say you don't like to talk about it. My friend, the only way through it is through it. Please think about getting into a group for grief support. I suspect that could change your life. Life can be good again, but maybe you have to take some steps to make that happen. You deserve that!
Hugs and remember lots of us care! Vanessa 49|2|So glad you posted Clay and please continue to take your meds. The holidays are especially tough|jilda|vze4gj4m@verizon.net|15:34:26|12/17/2010|
when you are sad. Try to reach out to a support group at your church or a local social service agency. Life is so precious and you are a good person who deserves to live out his life. 48|1|Clay, life is too precious to lose, You don't need the likes of those 2 women, This is the time of season when people who are alone, hurt the most. Keep a postivie mind, volunteer at a hospital, nursing home where you might be able to help others and you would be helping yourself in the long run. |flapper|joyphalen@yahoo.com|11:18:09|12/17/2010|
I volunteer at the Roswell hospital, and I never knew there were so many nice people, the volunteers, the staff, the patients. I just love doing what I do. That might be something to look into. With so many nice people, your just liable to meet someone too. I fought so damned hard to save my life fighting cancer. I won, you too can come out of this.
Clay no matter what the problem, nothing is worth losing your life over. It's too precious. And way to short.
This is the season why your feeling that way. Please get out and find something to do that would help others and you too.
Joy
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Garnette member 50|2|Clay...am really glad to see you posting |BusterBrown|srfreezerqueen@hotmail.com|17:50:29|12/17/2010|
meds for depression are definitely not something to mess with....it is really amazing how missing them for whatever reason can really affect a person....Am glad to see that the snap back occured...I always enjoy your posts and comments...Hugs to you...Jodie 51|1|Clay I feel so sorry for you there is some one outthere for you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!|barginsissy|bluedogargus@yahoo.com|19:50:28|12/17/2010|
you need to get some meds for depression you will be in my prayers the return stamp on the one trade shows that you are not ugly!!!!!!!!!!!!!very handsome