Why is it when something goes wrong here at my house all hell breaks loose & everything goes wrong?? Am I hated?? Did I do something really bad that God is punishing me?? I wish to God that my life would just end I'm not sure if I can handle much more. I just want it to all end & leave me alone. Sorry, I just can't take much more.
Donna
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1|1|Donna I know how you feel and I am sorry to hear that you feel this way|glennie58|glenn_scott@alumni.ksg.harvard.edu|12:34:36|07/23/2010|
yes life is tough and yes there are times when we would like to give up. But you can do this, you can make it, this is not too hard for you, God never gives us more than we can bear, even if we bear up under it kicking and screaming lol. I wish there were more platitudes I could write for you but when we are short on money I find it can be hard. My son's SSI person decided that his dad's income could be counted as ours (he has issues that prevent him from living with us on a regular basis and I insist on this for my son's protection)
anyhoo they reduced our check by $250/month and guess how much I was short on the rent this month? We were getting by (by the skin of our teeth) I do rebates (thanks Tammi!) and coupon and mystery shop for food and car care so this one really hurt, and then they wonder why people hate and fear the US government. I get the impression that the folks at SSI have a little bit of a God complex and I am sure they are not the only ones.
If you are really concerned for a child's welfare (and they accused me of JUST SITTING AROUND UNTIL HIS MONEY RAN OUT, ROFL) why not examine his home life? If they had they would have seen that I home school him and work hard besided, and no one sits around but I am guessing that they have some instructions to balance the budget on the backs of the poor and treat folks that are on SSI, medicaid and medicare like they are on welfare(after giving millions to rich people).
Sometimes I feel afraid, but most of the time I just worry, I get down but then I think this true thought: I have to do something positive, anything, just to change my mind sometimes, get me going, get my faith up again, to the point where I can pray. And then I pray for me, for my son, for all my friends here, and even the US government, because they are the folks that need prayer the most, the ones with the power that regularly abuse us, the ones without the power or the money. So I pray double hard for them LOL.
I sincerely hope you feel better soon and remember this last platitude : it's always darkest before the dawn especially if you are up worrying at 2, 3, or 4 AM. (If you're doing that, get some sleep, things will definitely look better after getting needed rest).
2|1|((((Donna)))) I am here for you..I really am!!|shellysmsmo|jpksms@sbcglobal.net|12:43:04|07/23/2010|
I am sorry that life is stressing you out... I do know how you feel....AND all I can say is I'm sorry. I will hope and pray that things get
better for you....If you ever need to talk...let me know. Hang in there!!! Life will be ok. Life is too short to be stressed and sad.
3|1|((BIG HUGE HUGS)) Donna and |zombietoo|littlejadensmom@juno.com|13:54:55|07/23/2010|
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4|1|Donna, I'm at work, can't post alot right now, but please know we care about you! Please, please, dont ever feel alone....we're here for you to vent to, to cry to, to lean on.....when I get down and feel life just simply sucks some days, I focus on the things that make me face the reality of the beauty of life....just the simplest thing like the way the sun hits the water and creates diamonds, or the laughter of a baby, or even my dog putting his head on my knee....let your heart feel, and hold on to the hope and happiness you find all around you. Praying for you right now!|saint6811|waylan@comcast.net|14:15:41|07/23/2010|
" You'll get what's coming to you ... Unless it was mailed."
5|2|Exactly:-)|zombietoo|littlejadensmom@juno.com|14:20:06|07/23/2010|
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6|1|((((DONNA))))~*~|RebekkaVA|queen_vulture@msn.com|16:55:33|07/23/2010|
I am so sorry to hear you are going through so much girlie, I know at times life seems so hard and that when it rains it pours, but please know that we are all here for you, if you ever need to talk, I'm an email away. I know it's easier said than done, but just keep the faith, things will get better. (((HUGS))))
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7|1|you|joseph|parkerjoe3@yahoo.com|17:02:59|07/23/2010|
need to talk to aprofessional what is it your going through you didn't say exactly what is wrong ? thinking about you maybe don't let people effect you so much 8|1|Donna, I've been thinking of you all day.....pls post to us so we know you are ok...I've been there, I know how hopeless and despairing things can feel....email me if you need to talk, I mean that.|saint6811|waylan@comcast.net|17:24:40|07/23/2010|
" You'll get what's coming to you ... Unless it was mailed."
9|1|I'm sorry you're having such a rough time of it. :(|maraj|maraj64@hotmail.com|19:05:09|07/23/2010|
Try to remember, things WILL get better. You WILL persevere & you WILL become stronger for it. God doesn't punish people but He's there w/you every step of the way as you go thru both good & bad times. And Glennie's right, He doesn't give us more than we can handle.
I always keep in mind when the going gets rough for me & I'm feeling down - 1 day at a time, I know things WILL get better cuz there's only 1 way to go & that is up! :)
Know that there are many of us here for you so you are NOT alone; our arms are open for you & sending big (((HUGS))) your way. :)
ETA: And I totally agree w/Joy about trying to focus on the beauty & goodness in simple things. I oftentimes stand at one of my back windows in the early morning & just relish in the sunrise. It's awesome to see the sun rising on a foggy/hazy morning or setting in the evening's pink sky. And then I have my little dog who's full of piss & vinegar & keeps me in stitches at least once a day, watching the birds &/or the squirrels as they're filling their little bellies on my ratty old picnic table & chasing each other around.
And today I've been blessed by the neighboring farmer who let some of his Jersey yearlings out for some rip-roaring romping. They're nosey little buggers & have been standing up by the fence periodically as if having a debate on how to get thru it. LOL I'm hoping to snap some pics of them cuz they're cute, but also crazy as the dickens w/alot of energy to burn off, evidently. LOL
I know the above probably sounds silly & trivial when there are big things weighing so heavily on your heart & mind, but I've found that those silly & trivial things seem to have an amazing way of making those big things not seem quite so heavy.
Some things I also do to help clear/blank out my mind are mowing lawn, going for a drive or reading rag magazines. I crush cans or clean my bathroom if I'm angry or frustrated as it helps burn off that hot steam, & when I need a reminder of staying grounded & appreciative for all the wonderful & important yet simple things in my life, I have my volunteer work at the nursing home. The residents are always SO grateful to have help & are tickled pink to win a mere banana or bag of chips at Bingo. Little do they realize just how much they help me! :)
Please identify yourself in 1st email w/name/username. Due to recent problem trades, if I haven't traded w/you before, I will probably require you send your end 1st or I'll need LEGIT trade references/feedback. I will be happy to provide the same. IF you plan to hold your end til you've received mine, I will need to know that IMMEDIATELY, BEFORE trade is finalized.
10|2|sorry Donna|angNC|memawang@embarqmail.com|20:24:42|07/23/2010|
my husbands grandmother used to say
If it doesn't kill you ,it will make you stronger.
I felt like slapping her alot too. Stay strong friend.
11|3|Sorry to hear you're going through such a trying time. ((hugs))|hudge4|hudge95@yahoo.com|20:44:43|07/23/2010|
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http://www.refundsweepers.com/dcforum/feedback/1021.html 12|2|I was going to say 1 day at a time too, and try not to think of EVERYTHING that is going wrong all at once.|missy|lovetotrade@hotmail.com|20:57:37|07/23/2010|
Just try to tackle 1 problem at a time, and each one that you resolve will make you feel better, and better enable you to deal with the next. Try to prioritize and deal with THE most important issue first, so that the others won't seem as bad then. If your problems require help that is beyond your control, PRAY and lean on your friends (like us) for hope and inspiration. Without knowing what situations you are trying to deal with, all I can say is CHIN UP, there are bound to be better days ahead.
Love & HUGS
Kathryn 13|1|Donna, I am so sorry to hear this. I wish I was near to you. I would give you a hug, hold your hand tell you to scream and hug you again. If you feel the need to talk to someone, whether it be someone from the board or a complete stranger by phone, please do so. I am worried about you.|Ranalt|ainebailey@gmail.com|21:05:44|07/23/2010|
Life is like a cup of tea,
It's all in how you make it.
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14|1|Please post and let us know how, you are doing.|dlpavitt|dlpavitt@att.net|21:19:14|07/23/2010|
ALways looking for:
daisy sourcream .60/1, or .50/1
utz chips, any
hunt's snack pack pudding
eggland's best eggs, .50/1 or better
powerade(any)
pepperidge farm cakes
thomas's english muffins
skippy peanut butter off 1
jif peanut butter off 1
Kellogg's off 1
General mills off 1
viva papertowels, .75/1
cottonelle, 1.00/1 or .50/1
cottonelle wipes 1.00/1 or better
coolwhip, any
gatorade g2
coupons good on ANY coke product
sprite coupons
mystic pizza coupons
Unused Stamps(small denomination's okay)
Well concealed cash
Free's(that I need)
bigelow tea, any
pphf, existing funds please
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Try to get all trades out with in 12 hours of confirmation. If you do not have a board name, and feedback, I will mail my end, only after I receive your end. Happy trading. Thanks for looking, Donna
15|1|Donna|zombietoo|littlejadensmom@juno.com|00:48:40|07/24/2010|
. 16|2|I'm ok|mo6g02|crazylady47952@yahoo.com|08:01:25|07/24/2010|
Donna
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17|3|Thanks goodness, and glad you are OK!!!!!|padrifter|bride@nb.net|08:43:43|07/24/2010|
I was really worried about you, take care and if you need to talk or vent, I am only an email away, Nancy
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18|3|Glad to see you post! :) Hang in there girl as we're all rooting for you! :)|maraj|maraj64@hotmail.com|08:44:17|07/24/2010|
Please identify yourself in 1st email w/name/username. Due to recent problem trades, if I haven't traded w/you before, I will probably require you send your end 1st or I'll need LEGIT trade references/feedback. I will be happy to provide the same. IF you plan to hold your end til you've received mine, I will need to know that IMMEDIATELY, BEFORE trade is finalized.
20|3|Thank you for posting to us, Donna....I prayed for you last night and today.....|saint6811|waylan@comcast.net|10:02:26|07/24/2010|
" You'll get what's coming to you ... Unless it was mailed."
26|3|So relieved|zombietoo|littlejadensmom@juno.com|15:35:51|07/24/2010|
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19|1|I am soo sorry to hear you are going thru this. My thoughts..|Skaytes|skaytez@gmail.com|09:12:32|07/24/2010|
echo everyone else's here. Believe me, I KNOW how hard it can be..still worrying and struggling here but it WILL get better! I will continue to keep you in my prayers here. ((HUGS)) and enjoy life while you can and stay strong! :) 21|1|Donna you are in my prayers....|melpaul|Melpaul199@aol.com|12:04:04|07/24/2010|
What everyone on this board is saying is so true you have so many friends here I know in life its very hard sometime
feel like givinu up but it will get better My mother always said "there is light at the end of the tunnel" and sometimes you need to go down a little to go back up for it will make you a stonger person
There is always help in your community if you ever need anything or just ask
It will get better Its just a passing storm right now sun will come out soon
22|2|I promise I won't do anything stupid, but I just can't deal with it right now.|mo6g02|crazylady47952@yahoo.com|13:31:12|07/24/2010|
So don't worry if I don't post or come around for awhile. I just have some very hard issues that I have to deal with & not sure how I'm going to do this or how it's going to end or what's going to happen. It's just to much right now with being sick with stomach virus for almost 2 weeks, it just wore me down & knocked the breath out of me. It's going to take me some time & it's a long way up this ladder. I know I will make it, but things just keep knocking me back down more steps than I've made it up, so it's just wearing me out. I didn't need to make anyone worry, I just had to scream & his was the only way that I knew. Thank you.
Donna
http://www.freewebs.com/mo6g02/
23|3|Donna, I'm glad you felt comfortable enough with us to share how you are feeling...we're here anytime you need us.....|saint6811|waylan@comcast.net|13:58:45|07/24/2010|
" You'll get what's coming to you ... Unless it was mailed."
24|1|LOL Donna I am still praying for you and all of us ~ my addendum inside|glennie58|glenn_scott@alumni.ksg.harvard.edu|15:16:32|07/24/2010|
I am scared to say it can't get any worse: yesterday I got a letter from this SSI guy and he says I have to pay back $3,0000 since they paid too much to Dashi last year? HUH? I was STUNNED, and then I realized they say it's so and that makes it true...never mind that we were already living hand to mouth, what do they care if we end up homeless? I prayed for that man that he experience exactly the worries, fears, and exhaustion that I feel, the same sense of hopelessness and that no one cares. And then I prayed it again. I know it's not nice but it was all I could do, to help him begin to understand the consequences of his actions... to begin to understand that just because he has the power to hurt people doesn't mean that he should. I prayed for him to reach true humility. God help us all, amen. 25|1|I'm sorry, Donna. Will keep you in my prayers|Mackiesmudder|Mackiesmudder@aol.com|15:33:27|07/24/2010|
Cathie 27|2|Donna, so many people are praying for you (and the other board members who also need prayer!) that things will work out...|KellyJef|burke3536@yahoo.com|16:20:00|07/24/2010|
just keep putting one foot in front of the other. 28|1|Still thinking about you Donna and praying for you girlie (((HUGS)))~*~|RebekkaVA|queen_vulture@msn.com|16:38:45|07/24/2010|
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Married to my Soul Mate William
"My husband has cancer, Please pray for him"
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Timothy 5/80
Matthew 10/92
Cheyenne 9/99
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29|1|Sorry to see this - Hope things get better soon - (M)|tammytwo|tamdesigns@mchsi.com|23:29:16|07/24/2010|
You really need to find someone to talk to though. I have been having a rough year myself and find that I feel much better after talking with someone. I also try to look at others and see that my problems though HUGE to me aren't really as big as some that others are experiencing. I know that sounds easier said than done but it does work at least temporarily.
Just keep your head up and know that someone in this world does love and care for you and your well being. Surround yourself with friends even when you feel like hiding from the all. Take time to relax and be sure to get enough sleep and ALWAYS, ALWAYS remember to PRAY!!!!
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30|2|Praying for direction for you|cjdj|Lintaos@optonline.net|19:21:51|07/25/2010|
Hugs,
Carol
