Hey guys, I think I am writing this, mire because I am worried, I am going crazy.
I really am starting to think I am depressed. Worse is, I am already on meds for depression(in fact they have been recently increased). Everything is so overwhelming. It is looking more and more, like I am going through aother holiday season, with next to nothing. Everyday that passes by, without word of a disability hearing, makes it more likely, that we will not see any of the money until after the holidays. I have run out of tricks, up my sleeve to make things, seem better than the are, if you know what I mean.
But, I am losing interest, in just about everything. I even read the boards, and can't bring myself to post most of the time. I haven't made a trade in weeks. It isn't just this, it is everthing. the only things keeping me going are my daughter(emly), and scrabble on facebook(I know, strange, but hey it is at least something I look forward too).
Also, my doctor just had to raise my meds for diabetes. I don't understand it. I have been stricter about my carb take more than ever, and my meds get raise. It just doesn't make sense. I am very worried about my health, my daughters health, and the swine flu.
My husband is offering no support. I don't know where to turn anymore. Thanks for listening all. I usually am a very positive thinker. I just don't know what is happening to me, lately. Donna
ALways looking for:
daisy sourcream .60/1, or .50/1
McDonald's Big mac Bogo's, or Free's
utz chips, any
hunt's snack pack pudding
eggland's best eggs, .50/1 or better
nabisco off 1
powerade(any)
pepperidge farm goldfish
pepperidge farm cinnamon rasin bread
pepperidge farm cakes
pepperidge farm litestyle bread
thomas's english muffins
Smuckers Orchard Select jam/jellies
skippy peanut butter off 1
jif peanut butter off 1
Kellogg's off 1
General mills off 1
viva papertowels, .75/1
cottonelle, 1.00/1 or .50/1
cottonelle wipes 1.00/1 or better
coolwhip, any
gatorade g2
coupons good on ANY coke product
sprite coupons
mystic pizza coupons
arm and hammer detergent off 1
NBPN rebates good in Ct
WINE TAG's bread, beef, poultry,cheese, deli items
Unused Stamps(small denomination's okay)
Well concealed cash
Free's(that I need)
BOGO's(that I need)
bigelow tea, any
pphf, existing funds please
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Try to get all trades out with in 12 hours of confirmation. If you do not have a board name, and feedback, I will mail my end, only after I receive your end. Happy trading. Thanks for looking, Donna
1|1|see inside|gwens29|gwen41539@bellsouth.net|12:34:02|10/20/2009|
i know what u are going thur everday i get up and dread the day i dont want to clean or do anything i have no motovation at all i dont trade as much as i use to and i cant afford to do rebates anymore because a lot of them didnt pay out and i went in the hole on them ...the holidays are coming and are bleek...my ds already had swine flu and i worry about the other 2 and us getting it...my laundry is piled over my head and i havent gotten the winter clothes out yet i need to but i dont want too..my dh doesnt understand depression he thinks that if i complain or worry that im blaming him ...i have lost 3 sisters to suicide and my mom and dad died when i was in my 20s id give almost anything to get to talk to my mom one more time ...i know what it is to have depression and feel alone and like no one cares my kids are the only thing that keeps me going and the reason i wake up in the mornings...i used to feel really good about my relationship with god but now even that seems bleek... im grumpy and short tempered and so frustrated like a fish out of water flopping around ...im on meds for my heart, diabetes, blood pressure and depression email me if u wanna talk maybe we can support each other
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3|2|Gwen...|sunriver|lithiasalt@cheerful.com|12:37:24|10/20/2009|
I feel for you too. Everything I said to Donna pertains to you. You have lots of people who care about you. Hang in there. Vanessa 2|1|I'm sorry Donna...|sunriver|lithiasalt@cheerful.com|12:35:14|10/20/2009|
It sounds like you have a lot on your plate and it is understandable that you would feel like that. Please consider talking to your doctor about what you are feeling. Maybe the meds need a little re-working?
You've got lots of good friends here too, so remember you can always come over here and unload.
As far as the financial stuff-- I totally understand that. Try not to focus on it. If you are worried about the holidays, maybe try to start thinking of a couple things you can make for your daughter? Even simple things like do some decoupage/collage on a blank book and make her a journal. I am doing that for our 9 yr old this year because she loves to draw so I found a beautiful (but plain) book at big lots for less than $4. I'll cover it with kittens and she will adore it.
There are lots of crafty people on here (linda, where are you? LOL!) who will probably give you some good ideas too. Even us not so crafty people can do a little bit and it helps relieve stress so it is good for us too.
At any rate, please remember that a whole bunch of us care about you.
Vanessa
4|2|Hang in there!! I feel, as the mom, that I am the one...|couponshelmd|couponshel@comcast.net|12:45:13|10/20/2009|
who should be making "Everything Better" in our family; we have taken a huge cut in hubby's pay so I think I understand what you mean about even our special money saving tricks are no longer enough. I think sometimes I am just going to crack and sit in the corner to cry. But I look at my kids and realize why I am here, if that makes sense? I am already trying to get Christmas gifts under control for them and I figure this year, everyone else does not matter!
I wonder how we got this way.... last year we had a savings account, one credit card with a balance and went out to eat once a month. Now, only one year later, the economy has created havoc on my budget and we are trying to make due with what we already own or can sell to pay our bills on time, and all three of our credit cards have some type of balance.
Donna, I guess I would like to tell you that you are not alone, I think that they are calling this a recession but I am calling it H-E-double hockey sticks if you know what I mean. Please keep coming here to read and post when you can, I think that we are a lot of us in the same boat but it is hard to talk about it, even though it is not our fault.
Hugs!!
Shel
5|3|Can I get an AMEN Donna stress with raise those sugar levels it'd a nasty nasty thing also try|teener|teenerzacsneenee@yahoo.com|13:01:02|10/20/2009|
adding a cinnomen tablet to your meds with every meal Shel I too suffer from the Mom make it better syndrome my boys are older but I still try and do it all for all of tem throw into the mix my Mom and I'm a loon lol I don't have the magic to change things just letting you know we are all here to help with anything we can 6|1|Donna~*~|RebekkaVA|queen_vulture@msn.com|13:18:02|10/20/2009|
I can understand how you feel and depression is hard, some people don't understand it esp. a spouse, my ex always thought my anxiety/depression was all in my head, he said it was for attention. Yeah right, I wanna feel this way for attention..LOL...Some men are totally clueless, now my hubby Will is the opposite, he's so compassionate and understanding and has gotten me through so much when I first left my ex. I even developed agrophobia when I was with my ex, I couldn't leave the house or anything, it was horrible esp cause I needed to function to care for my two boys. But by the Grace of GOD, he gave me the strength to get my self back to me. It's hard to put into words. Have you gone through therapy? I know alot of people don't like it, but I went through cognitive therapy and it helped me so much. What a big difference how our life has changed in the past 2 1/2 plus years...I want you to know that if you ever need to talk or anything please let me know. You are a wonderful lady and a great friend and I am always here for you. I'll be praying for you. Hugs, Rebekka
~*~REBEKKA~*~
a.k.a. "Queen Vulture"
Married to my Soul Mate William
"My husband has cancer, Please pray for him"
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Timothy 5/80
Matthew 10/92
Cheyenne 9/99
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7|1| i remember too|aliciamk|ohiogirl279@yahoo.com|13:31:18|10/20/2009|
we all have bills,kids,losing jobs,losing homes, losing cars, losing everything that you have worked all your life for.we have had 2 family members so far declare bankruptcy both because of medical bills,layoffs,credit cards debts,and student loans no job no money can't squeeze blood from a turnip.we live in an area where all the plants laid off about the same time! no jobs at all around here unless your lucky enough to get a job at a restauarant or wal-mart.but the pay is so low would not even cover the gas to drive there or cover daycare.i have added it up several times cheaper to stay home with kids and grin and bear it for awhile.we are doing the same thing we did when gas prices went up over $4.00 we just stay home no drive-in,no carry out,no $5 dollar pizza,not even the redbox unless we have a free code,no eating out,no movies,no going to games 5 bucks a piece to go 25 bucks for our family just to get into the school games,no chucky cheese,no put-put golf.we have sold everything we can on ebay awhile ago mostly old electronics laying around the house.around here you can even hardly sale anything people want it for free or want to barter.we tried to sell our car all we got were offers for older broken down cars.my only solution is to stay at home and ride it out the best i can.i cant remember the last time i bought myself anything in the last couple of years besides a pair of shoes because a neighbors dog took off with one of mine.but you wont believe how much money i have saved by just staying home. 8|2|i think everyone knows those feelings......with my husband being laid off....then working a wk and off again|couponsnsamples|cpsnsamples@aol.com|13:50:49|10/20/2009|
Posted on Oct-20-09 at 01:50 PM (Eastern) by 67.142.165.38
i know the feeling of saving every penny i can.......when he got laid off i had enough saved that i wasnt hurting....as we dont owe any huge credit card bills,or car payments..only pay utilities,housepayment and food..so unemployment will do that........but for the first time in over 20 yrs i had to put my pride in my pocket and head out to the foodstamp office...that way we had money to cover insurance and stuff.........i even signed my boys up on free school lunch....for the first time in their life..........
i have had to tell my boys NO...we cant afford too..........go to walmart or go out and eat.....ect..(luckly a couple months ago i won 4 tickets each good for a free meal per month at Cici's pizza...so once a month we take the boys out to eat.........otherwise no...
my daughter ,her husband and 4 kids..live paycheck to paycheck.....he works a little $8 per hr job......and they get foodstamps...my daughter had a job at cracker barrell......by the time she paid for gas to go,daycare for the baby and half day for my grandson..and then they cut her foodstamps......she was going in the hole trying to help out on bills.....
they pay the most urgent bill first..then the others as they can.......they never have enough to cover everything......when the grandkids want something...they used to call me...but now i cant get for them either.......and to make things worst...he husband had an accident at work a few days ago.......now hes off work for no telling how long....bills are piling up.........the BOSS is trying to hurry him back to work......both hands are wrapped like a mummy........but boss thinks maybe he can return to work in the grease and dirt by wednesday...all it is...is the boss knows they need the money
so bad to survive.......makes me sick..........i told my sil he cant force u back to work until dr releases u.......dont dare go back or if this leads to more complications...u wont have a leg to stand on............ in the world today........a poor person doesnt have a chance.......
and to beat it all......she called child support office yesterday because on my one grandaughter her dad has never paid a penny out on her......anyway my daughter was told that child support had all new workers and that when they pulled my daughters case...it actually had dust on it.....even though she called them once a week for months on end..they never done anything.........but as of today......his licenses are being suspended,any cars,motorcycles ect...will have a lean on it.......and if he has worked anywhere in the united states......his taxes will go to my daughter........maybe.......someday she will collect something from the sucker......
9|3|I feel for you also|crenchen|crenchen@aol.com|15:29:29|10/20/2009|
everyone knows my story as I posted here and got alot of help and support. My hubby lost his job a month ago and unemployment finally started last week. We are behind two months in electric, phone and water. I work a part time job that centers around my daughters hours at school. Unemployment will cover the house payment and put gas in the car. My checks barely cover the car payment and car insurance. So I try to sell or auction off anything that I can to make a little extra money. I don't have money for the utilities or food so I send the utilities a little at a time in the hopes they won't shut anything off and I buy food when I have stretched everything else out and have to have it, for example milk, bread, eggs and lunch meat. It will be a month since I applied for foodstamps and medical with welfare and when I called today my case is still pending. I have just about given up on them. My husband has applied for jobs every other day and gets no call backs or they won't hire him because he was fired from this last job for no reason as the job never did get back to unemployment when he filed for it so they just granted it to him. But some trucking companies won't hire you if you were fired so now when he applies for a job he says he was layed off. He is so down in the dumps all he does is sleep, watch tv and play on the computer. All you can do is take one day at a time and hope that the future gets better before getting worse. 10|1|Donna, I agree with Tina...the stress will make your blood sugars elevated, thus the increase in your meds.....and I think as mom's we do feel we are the ones who have to hold it all together, make everything good for everyone, not just ourselves. Sometimes it's a good thing to be a little selfish and think of yourself first! Just remember we are here to talk to, always....but please talk to your doctor about your increased feelings of depression (you have good reasons to feel more blue with the things that you are worried about!), he can help regulate your meds to the best therapeutic benefits possible. Sending all of you a BIG HUG, we women need to support each other in life's daily troubles!|saint6811|waylan@comcast.net|16:29:41|10/20/2009|
A government big enough to give you everything you want, is strong enough to take everything you have.
--Thomas Jefferson--
You cannot build character and courage by taking away people's initiative and independence.
You cannot help people permanently by doing for them, what they could and should do for themselves.
~Abraham Lincoln
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12|2|Ok..this will make you all feel better..inside...|Skaytes|skaytez@gmail.com|21:25:59|10/20/2009|
I know you are all depressed and have plenty on your plates and I feel badly for each and every one of you. I know it's very very hard and times are really tough these days. I have not posted this online although quite a few people know my situation but figure if it will make others feel better, maybe I should post this. My Mom always said "if you think you have it bad, you can always look around and see someone else who is a h*ll of a lot worse off than you are".
Ok..here is my situation so hopefully this will help you all to see there are worse off situations. Not wanting sympathy as God will get me and girls thru this but prayers are certainly welcome and the more the better of course.
Three weeks ago..literally out of the blue..absolutely NO clue anything was wrong..my husband just announced he was walking out on me and our 2 special needs girls and he literally did right after that announcement. Top that off by me finding out he left our 20 yrs together to fall for someone he had never met online while playing a game. Top THAT off by finding out last weekend he flew her in for a 5 day love fest (she lives clear across the country) and he hasn't been served papers even yet for the divorce. One daughter is multiply handicapped, non verbal and on ventilator and oxygen and takes everything by G/J tube..nothing by mouth. Other daughter is epileptic..has had brain surgery a few years back etc. I have no family at all living other than my kids so no one to help me out here. Other grown daughter lives in IL and son lives in Indy so very far away. I do have some nursing for daughter during the weekdays for night sleeping (average about 5 hrs a night if lucky) and during day weekdays for 8 hrs so I can take other daughter to Dr or go get groceries or meds. I have NO help on weekends at all. My soon to be ex says he will only help for a little while on weekends but will NOT do this every weekend. (Read...will soon just stop coming around at all because having 'fun' is more important than my daughters life. *sigh*) That would mean I have to literally stay awake from Fri a.m. to Sun pm when nurse would get back here. No extra hours available for nursing at this time. Am fighting to get some from ANY where, but then because we live in a very rural area, no nurses want to work every weekend of course if I DID get hours. HOW I am going to stay awake and watch both girls for all weekend when he starts skipping out is beyond me. Haven't a clue. Miss daughters' vent alarm..it costs her her life. He doesn't care at this point and Yes...he adopted these girls 13 yrs ago so are legally his. Go figure. On top of this, I can't get food stamps. Missed it by $200 they say because this state has such low figures for utilites etc. Was told they only allow $16 for phone. Where can they get that for that price cuz I want it I told the intake worker. She chuckled and said yeah..me too..knowing that was a bunch of bull. Only like $400 allowance..well a bit over..for your entire utilites even in winter and that includes everything they consider utilites.
I went from having hubby's paycheck which was mgmt pay..to only daughters' disablity checks and a bit for watching my epileptic daughter thru a state program. There is NO way I can pay house pymt etc if he misses a pymt. Where can I go for housing? No where around here. Waiting lists for low income housing (what little is available) is horribly long at this point around here. Talking may be a few years before you can get a chance for a place to live off the list. I am going to be lucky to pay the utilities I am responsible for in this mess.
I know God has a plan..just wish he would let me in on it. Also realize that with daughter on vent and here with no help, I cannot even take a shower on weekends..can't hear vent etc in the other rooom. Can't go outside...can not get out whatsoever on weekends. I run out of toilet paper Friday night not realizing I needed it..all weekend no one to call to go get me some. Have to wait till Monday. If something horrible happens and need to get daughter on vent to hospital, I can't even call 911 and get a ambulance to take her unless I ride along (it's against the law for the EMT's to do vent transfer without proper accompanying help as they are not qualified for vents)so what would I do with other daughter? can't leave her home alone...no one to call to come help and she wouldn't be allowed to ride in ambulance. IF they were smart enough to get a RN to ride along on ambulance then she could be transferred but also realize she does NOT do well without me with her. That is a given..so once again endangering her life. What if electric goes out in snow/ice/Tstorm? Can't leave the house...can't drive and monitor her on the vent at same time in back seat. No power..no vent...she will lose her life if it's out very long as back up batteries are not reliable..found that out over the years and she can't take excesses of heat or cold and no electric means no heat. Again..life threatening but what can I do? Trying to get a organization to get a generator for us, but so far it's a "no go" on that.
Sooo...if you think you have it bad just think of my situation here. At any given moment my daughter could lose her life due to his leaving and it's not a 'issue' with him..just he wants no responsibilites and "greener pastures" at this point for himself.
Thank you to everyone who continuously has and continues to say prayers for us and send good thoughts our way. The girls and I appreciate it more than you will ever know. I am leaving this up to God as again, I know he has a plan but trying to do what I can to ensure these girls have what they need of course. I have gotten everyone's trades but have been sooo busy trying to make and do appts to see if we can get help I just haven't been online much to catch up with everything. I wish everyone the very best and will say continued prayers for you all as well and hope things go much better for you all soon. God Bless you all...
11|1|Thanks everyone for your thoughts. Tina, had read your reply befor work. I had a walgreens, gift card in my wallet, and stopped and got the cinnamon capsules(good timing, they were buy on get one free). So giving it a whirl, starting tomorrow. Thanks for the suggestion. Donna|dlpavitt|dlpavitt@att.net|21:02:05|10/20/2009|
ALways looking for:
daisy sourcream .60/1, or .50/1
McDonald's Big mac Bogo's, or Free's
utz chips, any
hunt's snack pack pudding
eggland's best eggs, .50/1 or better
nabisco off 1
powerade(any)
pepperidge farm goldfish
pepperidge farm cinnamon rasin bread
pepperidge farm cakes
pepperidge farm litestyle bread
thomas's english muffins
Smuckers Orchard Select jam/jellies
skippy peanut butter off 1
jif peanut butter off 1
Kellogg's off 1
General mills off 1
viva papertowels, .75/1
cottonelle, 1.00/1 or .50/1
cottonelle wipes 1.00/1 or better
coolwhip, any
gatorade g2
coupons good on ANY coke product
sprite coupons
mystic pizza coupons
arm and hammer detergent off 1
NBPN rebates good in Ct
WINE TAG's bread, beef, poultry,cheese, deli items
Unused Stamps(small denomination's okay)
Well concealed cash
Free's(that I need)
BOGO's(that I need)
bigelow tea, any
pphf, existing funds please
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Try to get all trades out with in 12 hours of confirmation. If you do not have a board name, and feedback, I will mail my end, only after I receive your end. Happy trading. Thanks for looking, Donna
13|1|Offering my prayers and support to each of you strong women...|kellysp6637|frugalk76@aol.com|21:54:26|10/20/2009|
please know you are in my prayers.....and hoping this economy will turn around soon. 14|1|Your all in my prayers.. Things are hard for most of us and as you can see really hard for others, we just need to pull together and|CJDJ112366|Lintaos@optonline.net|22:08:14|10/20/2009|
barter...
Hugs,
Carol
PS and if we have extra to raok some things... 15|1|Sending up extra special prayers & big (((HUGS))) for all of you who are currently struggling. |maraj|maraj64@hotmail.com|22:53:54|10/20/2009|
I know it may not be possible but I just want you to know I'd have you set up "camp" here w/me in a heartbeat if it was possible. I've been down a similar road & I truly understand how difficult it is not knowing how you're going to manage from one day to the next or what's going to happen, & it's terrifying. I learned that coffee & water not only made me pee like crazy but they suppressed my hunger pangs when it was more important for my son & my dog to eat than me, & I learned that soup, among many other things (milk, juice, dish & laundry soap, shampoo & conditioner, etc.), can be watered down to stretch it out. And I learned that prayer & meditation helped me fall asleep despite my stomach ferociously growling & being in knots from worry/stress/fear. There are many other creative things I learned but I won't ramble here.
I'm not knocking our country but it bothers me to NO end that this country can spend & send billions of dollars to other countries yet there are SO many here of our own that are struggling & need help, & can't get it. :(
Just know that people truly do care about you & are praying for things to finally turn positive for you. :)
We live in the Land of the Free only because of the Brave!
Please identify yourself in 1st email w/name/username. Due to recent problem trades, if I haven't traded w/you before, I will probably require you send your end 1st or I'll need LEGIT trade references/feedback. I will be happy to provide the same. IF you plan to hold your end til you've received mine, I will need to know that IMMEDIATELY, BEFORE trade is finalized.
16|1|Donna, email me my friend , we need to chat about something|petunia1|sweetpea39@comcast.net|23:13:00|10/20/2009|
send me an email when you get a chance, we need to touch base on something. I am working all day wednsday & thursday but will get back to you as soon as I can
sending prayers and hugs, hang in their girlie, try not to let things get you down and remember you do have friends on the board. We are here for you
BIG BEAR HUGS !!! 17|2|Donna cye Prayers for you in your email.|lucky7|ilovetorefund@webtv.net|23:51:44|10/20/2009|
j 18|1|ladies please hang in there we are getting ready to file our papers for bankruptcy |lydzkydz|lydzmcss@yahoo.com|23:54:05|10/20/2009|
and i am soo nervous about it all
we don't have to worry about losing our house as we don't own it
but hoping we don't lose our vehicles we are paying for those
i will be praying for all of you
i pray for all my refundsweepers friends
i can't remember names but God knows who they are when i say Rs friends
take care and hugss to you all!!!
Lydia
please include your user name on refundsweepers.
i appreciate all the trades made in the past.
THANKS!! 19|2|I was sad tonight|angNC|memawang@embarqmail.com|00:08:31|10/21/2009|
till I read this, I have alot to be thankfull for. Praying for all of you. 20|1|Donna and all of the others feeling this way. ... I will keep you in my prayers.|Ranalt|ainebailey@gmail.com|11:21:32|10/21/2009|
Life is like a cup of tea,
It's all in how you make it.
Lisa
21|2|adding my prayers to all those of us who are struggling...|KellyJef|burke3536@yahoo.com|20:02:28|10/21/2009|
life can be so tough sometimes :( 22|1|Thinking of you, just sent you an email Donna|Mackiesmudder|Mackiesmudder@aol.com|23:46:36|10/21/2009|
Cathie 23|2|There are so many that feel the same..depression hurts.|shellysmsmo|jpksms@sbcglobal.net|08:31:38|10/22/2009|
I know how you ladies feel. It's really hard. I just wanted to let all of you know..that you are never alone.
If you ever want to "talk" get on here and talk....I'm sure someone will always be here to talk...I know with my
sleeping patterns..there are nights, im up 2 or 3 in the morning!! SO please dont' ever forget...you have lots of
friends that care...I am one of them!! i'm here for you guys!! Hang in there! AND maybe we can even share our medicines. :)
just kidding..just trying to get a laugh..HAHAH.... :)